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Today’s prompt: describe a moment when you felt fully connected to someone, the situation, and the feelings you experienced.

What a weird question! A questions that makes me feel * uncomfy *

When I am with my platonic life partners it is feels like we are fully connected. When I am with my nested partner, we are relaxing, an/or being intimate it feels like we are connected. My nervous system is regulated (I don’t have racing thoughts, I don’t feel like I am going to die or vomit, etc) , and I don’t feel anxious or like I am grasping for stability. Both scenarios feel good, but then I psych myself the fuck out.

Are they bored of me?

Why do they want to be my friend?

Did I say something that weirded them out?

My biggest enemy is me, it’s Talia v Talia. Low self-esteem + confidence is a killer. I often contemplate what my life would have been like if I didn’t psych myself out? I would’ve tried all the activities, and probably be a musician. I really loved playing the viola until I switched to a school without an orchestra.

But now I know that I am lucky, and everything works out in my favor. I have everything little Talia ever wanted, so I might as well run with it.

xx,