let’s talk about stress bby
I haven’t written here in awhile due to stress actually lmao.
Prompt: reflect on a situation where my stress level was high…what were some of the physical and emotional symptoms you were feeling?
Last Thursday my partner, and I travelled to Palm Springs for a week with our dog. Last week was probably one of the more stressful workloads that I can remember. Well anyways last Thursday, I had a tantrum for about 4 hours, and screamed at my partner.
Formerly, I have disliked traveling with him because he is very unbothered. He is okay with being the last one. When we travelled from Seattle to my island we were the last one to board the plane, and the last one to get off. He forgets stuff, and the flight attendants are always telling him to put his bag underneath the seat, put his tray table up, or put his phone stand away. I am already a high strung human. Part of my survival is that I try to anticipate the needs others, and constantly reassessing the environment around me. When we traveled back home we didn’t even have a dog.
I was working in the TSA line because I had been bombarded at work. I looked like a crazy person working in the TSA line. Which made me feel more frustrated, an agitated because I told him I didn’t want to travel while I was working. I am already stressed at work, and adding traveling with my unbothered partner/my dog makes me feel even more exacerbated.
Anyways the physical symptoms I had were pain in my neck, being really tired, and I even vomited on the plane because I choked on a single grain of rice (don’t worry I stayed in the bathroom the entire time). I get sweaty, and sometimes I even cry when I am stressed. My experience is really fucking embarrassing.
I don’t know why I let my stress, and anxiety eat away at me. I need to learn to let things go. I don’t want to feel like my emotions are taking control of me, because my reactions are the only thing I can “control.”
We returned yesterday, and it was much better. Partially because the Palm Springs Airport is a smaller airport. Also because work was not stressful yesterday. We all sat together (the previous flight my partner and dog sat together, and I was seated by myself. I am really trying to be intentional in our future trips together. More so stressful traveling with my partner than alone with my dog. I feel like because I have to consider another person’s feelings into the equation. Everything can be better, and I am going to apply that philosophy to this situation as well.
Well, it is the day after flying back. I am happy to be home, and hope I get piped down soon. I really need a thick cock inside of me to feel a bit better.
xx,