feelin really busy and hope to go to sleep soon
I am in Vegas it’s delightful. My platonic life partner’s (PLP) 30th birthday is this weekend. My 3 (PLP) are here, and I the happiest I can ever be. A theory I have is that when someone treats their friends in a tender/gentle way indicates maybe their home/family life isn’t that great. They are seeking whatever to fill the void. Of course this can be me projecting my shit home life, but that’s my hot take. When I finally arrived at their home I stated loud AF, “I am so happy to be home!!” They are my chosen family, and I am fortunate to have dynamic bitches such as these to spend the highs/lows of life. They make my life have substance, love, and fun! If it ain’t fun, or mentally stimulating I am in fact not doing it. Seriously, I love my anchor partner/lovers, but there is something so fulfilling about femme relationships. Seeing women in their natural element, taking up space, and living their best fuckin life is a dream. They are so funny, smart, beautiful, and the best cooks. Tonight they made butter beef, and hot pot. I had a date tonight so I didn’t have time to eat before I left for the evening.
On the other side I have been awake since 7 am on Wednesday? It is now Friday. I flew out to Vegas very early this morning. I didn’t start packing until 12:44 AM, and my flight was at 6am. If this blog post is coherent at all will would be a miracle. I look forward to writing my blog ,and want to keep it up for myself.
Today’s prompt question is: what is a phrase you can use to calm yourself down?
Unequivocally so my phrase is “No feeling is final.”
I don’t want to be dark, moody, nor romanticize mental illness, but when I am alone, lonely, and not the best version of myself I say, “No feeling is final.” I have to remind myself that I haven’t always felt this way. I will not always feel this way, and try my best not to spiral. Which is hilarious because thinking about the past is depression, and thinking about the future is anxiety. So when I am having moments of anxiety/depression I try to ground myself in the present moment/my body. But then when I am feeling despondent AF I have to remember that no feeling is final….? LOL like brain/spirit/Talia make up your mind. I am metaphorically deceased hahahaha. Humans don’t know jack about brains. Especially neurodivergent brains. Any who I am falling asleep while typing this so most definitely being a sign to go the fuck to sleep.
xoxo,
T