I watched a youtube video where they felt social media was dead because of long form videos, how folks cannot discern what is AI, and the cookie cutter social media posts. I thought about starting a substack (I created a profile in 2024) but I figured fuck it I am going to go super analogue with the blog on my website. I feel like typos and run on sentences is endearing when grammerly and AI can fix all our mistakes. I am a human, I make mistakes, I do not know everything, and do not pretend to know everything. Also, I do not want to have folks go to yet another social media when all this information is here.
I have not created a published blog post since 2024, so it’s been quite a bit. Updates updates updates, uhhh I broke up with my partner of 6 almost 7 years in August and was so traumatized I needed to move to Vegas. Now I am in the city of sin and tbh I love it. There is nothing like open container laws and smoking an occasional cigarette indoors. I like the slots, cheap food, high ceilings, marble, and the energy that anything can happen. I can be my most authentic self and lowkey highkey I am a dirtbag. My friend said I was a frat boy. I like to have fun and fuck, there are worse things to do imo.
I will not lie and deny the loneliness or empty space I feel but peace is something I haven’t felt in a long time, a regulated nervous system as well. The blog will be a journal for me until I feel cringe and hide all my posts again. But to be cringe is to be free, is what I have heard.
Maybe I will write essays because saying the word I and writing profusely about myself is unnatural. Should I write about songs I am listening to or analysis of media I consume?
Since moving to Vegas in late August I have lost 10-12 pounds, and read 8 or 9 books? I forgot and I need to update my reading list on my about page. Anyways, I haven’t taken my Vyvanse and need to focus.